November 4

gonna be 24 years old

Haven't accomplished anything

have no destiny or grand purpose

Feels like the past 25 years has been watsted... for nothing

With FA being down, i've been wandering around here more often.

Found quite the few nice pics, 'though I can honestly say I'd love to see more pics of Greiver from Final Fantasy VIII(8)

Other than that minor observation, mostly i've just been doing my best with life and the world, keeping healthy, warm and fed. Working and doing what I can to push forwards.

I hope everyone is doing well, and they have plesant dreams.

Please, repost this in support of your friends and loved ones who are. Love is not defined by color, creed, sexual preference, or gender. Feel free to add your own story to the end.

I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman.

I am the boy who never finished high school, because I got called a fag everyday

I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian.

I am the one working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman.

I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights.

We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.

I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room.

I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me.

I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear.

We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men.

I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male.

I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men.

I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that.

I am the woman who died when the EMTs stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transsexual.

I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I didn't have to always deal with society hating me.

I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don't believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind.

I am a warrior for my country serving proud, but can't be my true self because gays aren't allowed in the military.

I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love.

I am the person ashamed to tell my own friends I'm a lesbian, because they constantly make fun of them.

I am the who isn't sure what she is. I am the who is rejected by her "best friends" because of a less-than-conventional crush.

I am the boy tied to a fence, beaten to a bloody pulp and left to die because two straight men wanted to "teach me a lesson."

This is the boy, Matthew Shepard. On October 7, 1998 Aaron McKinney and Russell Henderson lead him to a remote area east of Laramie where they demonstrated unimaginable acts of brutality . Matthew was tied to a split-rail fence where he was beaten and left to die in the cold of the night. Almost 18 hours later he was found by a cyclist who initially mistook him for a scarecrow. Matthew died on October 12 at 12:53 am at a hospital in Fort Collins, Colorado. MURDERED BECAUSE HE WAS GAY!!!

IF YOU BELIEVE THAT HOMOPHOBIA IS WRONG... REPOST THIS
AS "HOMOPHOBIA."

IF YOU ARE IGNORANT... IGNORE

Please, repost this in support of your friends and loved ones who are. Love is not defined by color, creed, sexual preference, or gender!!

Whelp.... i'm boned.

my laptop, as old and faithful as it is... is on it's last legs. This meaning, it's time to get a new one.


The lower left corner of my screen is loosing pixels. it's nothing major, but given how it's been starting to lag and otherwise show problems... well. I think it's time to look for a new one.

What does this mean? Oh faithful friends and lurkers.

It means i'm gonna be out of IM and ONline connection for a while... unless I manage to get on a net cafe, or a friends computer. I'm boned.

No more internets for me for a while... and the way things are going here on FA... i'm gonna be up over 200 submissions at the very LEAST before I can get back online


But worry not, oh ye of kindred hearts... the procedes to the sale of this laptop will go towards a newer, shinier laptop that has better cooling and is not several years old when I get my paws on it.

Meaning.. no more deals from pawnshops... as useful and shiney as they are ;3



In closing, I honestly hope those who watch me, and those who I watch (grr ) have a wonderful night, a great week, and a lovely weekend... as i'll probably be gone for longer than that.

Thanks to all my Friends and Family, i'll be keeping ahold of it for atleast 48 hours to finalize the reinstall and cleaning, so I'll still have time to talk to everyone between Defrags and Scandiscs.
Plesant Dreams.

Well, things have been happening... had a couple of good, strong depressions... felt like shit in a crapstorm... had a good cry... and generally felt like the stuff that sticks to the underside of your shoe after you step in a cow-pattie.

SO! before everyone starts awwing and giving me condolences and pats on the back, i'll let everyone know it's in the past, i'm feeling much better, and there's no need for sorries.

Recent News: Well, this dragon's single. after not being in contact with my mate for over 3 months, it became clear that our relationship is at an end... he's too busy to be online for more than 15 minuites, and I'm never on when he is.

As much as this was my 4th serioius "I'd die for you" relationship, and now leaving me with 4 nice even scars on my heart, (Tic-tac-toe anyone!?) I'm happy to say it was also my longest... lasting a full 6 years.

To him, i say thank you so very much for making my life a little brighter. So, thank you, T'zisorey Tigerwulf, for being someone I could open up to.

hmm.. I'm currently on mental medical leave... as i've had a serious breakdown at work. Not too happy about it, but *shrugs* either that or i go to jail for manslaughter.... not a good idea.

*ponders* had a recent talk with a good friend... someone I actually care for and like. said some things, he pointed out a few flaws... so, the next little while i'm going to be focusing on fixing them Working to better myself.

I've got a colaborative work in progress, it's still mostly a secret, but perhaps it'll come out nicely in the end.

*glances at the time*
Well, that's all for me... to all my friends, especially those whom i'm still talking to, have a great week, and hopefully we can talk again!